After another few months I really wanted to give an update about my long way to recovery. In the first few weeks after our summer holiday nothing changed that much and I was a little bit disappointed. I hoped it would improve and get better a lot faster but that didn’t happen. I had to suck it up a bit longer. So I did what I had to do – went to therapy every week and kept on working on my daily schedule. Keeping a tight schedule helped me get through the days. It gave me a purpose and some guidance for whenever I had a bad day. I invested a lot of my time into creating greeting cards with watercolours – still do that every day – and it made/makes me calm and happy (a little bit like meditation for me).
Completely unrelated but I was also working towards my 30th birthday…yes, a big milestone. We were planning a big party together with my dad and I really expected this to be too much to handle for me. But with a lot of help from the people around me I could actually relax and enjoy this time. This was the first time for me that I felt like I was getting a bit better. It was also the first time my hubby told me he saw me be really genuinely happy. That is what I experienced too that day – I enjoyed myself so much.
After my birthday I got the green light to start working again…well working is a big word. They let me go back to work for an hour every other week. Not a lot but it feels so good to be productive again. Going back was not as hard as I thought it would be and that also gave me an amazing boost. Sure, I don’t like all of my work yet and after my hour of work I can’t do anything else that day. But it is a step in the right direction.
All these tiny little steps made me feel so much better that I can honestly say that I am improving every day. I know I’m not there yet. There are still days that are hard – days that I get nothing done. Normal, calm days are good but to much people/emotions is still really hard. But there is a little bit of light at the end of the tunnel and it keeps getting brighter every day!
This Galaxy greeting card is one of my favorites so far.